Healing a Broken Heart

Angel Lexi here, taking my blog back for just a little while. I’ve seen my Mom tilt her head in that way that I know she is thinking hard and she’s looking at little Xena when she does it. Let’s start from the beginning so this will make sense.

I knew it would be terrible for Mom when I had to leave, so I hung on for two more months than the docs said I would. Then I had no choice but to go on back to my Creator. After four months I could see how sad Mom still was, so I asked the Big Guy to send someone to help her. I figured He would send her another schnauzer, maybe even let me pick out the right one. At first I didn’t understand why He sent her Lucy. When I asked, He said to wait and watch. I could tell she was still very sad, but the break in her heart seemed to be starting to heal, at least a little.  As the months continued to pass, I saw stitch after stitch forming, creating a heart that could once again hold love. Lucy was accomplishing the job He sent her to do.

After the first anniversary of my leaving had passed, The Big Guy called me to Him to let me know that my Mom was ready for another schnauzer, and that I could help Him find just the right one. I knew exactly what Mom needed. She needed another little girl who looked a bit like me, but not too much. She had to be spunky and smart like me, and ready to be Mom’s partner in lots of activities, including being the church dog. I always loved Mom to the moon and back, but I wasn’t a “touch” dog except for when I was therapizing. Even though that is something she wanted when she adopted me, she never held it against me that it wasn’t in my personality. This time, I wanted Mom to get a cuddly girl, too. I knew the puppy couldn’t be too far away, like in China, or Mom wouldn’t get her, so I started searching in my home state of Georgia. Of course, The Big Guy knew I would find just the right one ’cause He had already picked her out. Boy, I can’t get up early enough to outsmart Him!

When the time was right Mom contacted my breeder, Becky, who understood what Mom wanted. The litter that would be ready to go in October were from a mom and dad who had puppies with temperaments more like mine, but they were all black and all males. Nope. The litter Becky expected to get in the spring would be from a mom and dad who usually had puppies that looked like me but were all cuddly love bugs with no “attitude.” Nope. So Becky told Mom about another great breeder named Toni. Toni was three hours away, and I knew that wouldn’t be a problem since Mom had driven that far to get me.  When Mom went to see these 15 week old puppies, Toni had already picked out the one she thought would be the best match for Mom. You see, I had whispered in Toni’s ear which one to choose, and of course, it was the girl who would soon be named Xena. Even though Xena’s only been in the family for a little over two months, Mom’s heart is healing much faster so it can hold all the love welling up inside it.  And Lucy’s new job is to help raise Xena and to be a wonderful big sister to her. She sure is acing that one, too.

Next thing I know, The Big Guy informs me that I am in charge of watching over Xena. Well, I’ll tell you, that really cut down time with my friend Spike. Puppies take a lot of watching. I made sure she didn’t chew everything up like I used to do as a puppy. Yep, checked that one off my list. Other than the potty training, everything has been going along beautifully, and she is almost there with that, too. Just as I was trying to pat myself on my back, Mom sends up a prayer to The Big Guy, asking for me to give Xena some of my bravery. It seems that every morning when Mom and Xena go to work, Xena is shaking in the car for at least half of the way there. She has other fears, too. I know, I know, she is supposed to be the Schnauzer Warrior Princess, but that’s for later. Even little princes and princesses have to grow into their titles, right? I started walking around thinking about this dilemma.

While it’s true that I have always had enough bravery to share, I didn’t know just how to go about this. I was walking and thinking and not paying much attention to where I was going. When I looked up I saw that I was in a different part of over the rainbow. I had wandered into the Land of Oz, and you will never believe who I found there…My Dorothy!

After getting caught up on the latest Oz news, I asked My Dorothy if she had any ideas. She asked me if I remembered the Cowardly Lion. Of course I did! He was one of my favorites. My Dorothy reminded me that he hadn’t always been brave; it was after he met her and the Tin Man and the Scarecrow that he learned to love and found his courage. Even then, he didn’t realize he had courage until the Wizard gave him a medal with the word Courage on it.

Suddenly, I knew what to do. For now, I am going to let little Xena grow and experience life and build her courage. I will keep en”courage”ing her and do my best to instill some of my extra bravery into her. Do you remember when the little warrior princess went after the big dogs in the house because they tore up her favorite toy? Who do you think helped her?  The more she learns to love and trust, the braver she will be. Some day she will get her own medal and be the superstar she was born to be.

So back to the beginning. When Mom tilts her head in thought, it is because she sees me in Xena, and wonders. Now you know why.

I think I will take a break from puppy watching and go running with Spike for a while.

I am Angel Lexi, the Brave Guardian.

 

42 thoughts on “Healing a Broken Heart

  1. Know what it’s like to say goodbye to pups over here (our Angel Katie and other dogs my mom loved that didn’t belong to her) but there’s always something to help us heal. Love you forever, Lexi. ❤

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  2. to Angel Lexi- Do you think that you could speak to someone about giving Sophie courage? She shakes when she is outside. If something is out of place, it is frightening. She is fine in the house. We would all appreciate your help.

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    1. I was afraid once or twice in my life, and remember what a bad feeling it was. I will check with The Big Guy to find out who is assigned to Sophie and see about giving them some tips to help her. Your Angel Friend, Lexi.

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  3. This post has really touched our mom’s heart. Losing Angel Greta was so very hard and sometimes after 3 years she is amazed how I have healed her heart. I have so many of Angel Greta’s traits but not as much “attitude” and I love to snuggle with mom. I am my own dog yet she often see’s Greta in me too
    hugs and love
    Mabel

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      1. Uh, Mom was my typist, so can’t help out there. I will be watching over Xena until the Big Guy says stop, and that may be a while. He doesn’t have much handle on the passing of time.

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  4. Mee-you Angel Lexi it iss luvley to hear frum you again!! Mee has missed you so-o much! Mee hope Noodle comes bye to reed yur bloggie post. Hee all so missess you ALOT!
    You have dun a lot fur Xena an shee iss growin uppy littul bye littul. An yur rite that wee 4 leggedss have to grow inn to our Titullss. Mee had to leern how to bee a Purrince….an mee iss still leernin!!
    Pleeze give Spike a ~~head rub~~ frum mee!!! Yur berry blessed to have a Unnycorn furend Lexi…butt then yur speshell…
    ***paw patsss*** yur furend, Siddhartha Henry xXx

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    1. You were my first and most special kitty friend, Siddhartha Henry. Spike said he doesn’t get too many head rub offers. It’s the unicorn thing, you know. ❤ Angel Lexi

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      1. Nuthin to ~~head rubbin~~ a unnycorn…just do if on their cheeks or on thee nose!!! Mee hopess JABAR horsey gotted a Unnycorn horn when hee went to Pure Land…..
        An Lexi mee has nevurr furgotten you mee Sisfur-Inn-Law fur evurr!
        ***air kissesss*** Siddhartha Henry xXXx

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  5. We went and read all that we missed about Xena ~ she is adorable. I have a new neighbor who has three schnauzers. There names are Matilda who is called Tilly, Delilah who is called Lilah and a very old one who I don’t here called much. They make me think of Lexi everyday they are the same color as Lexi. Lilah is a kiss giver and the lover of the pack. All have so different personalities and all three had one parent the same.
    Merry Christmas
    Sweet William The Scot

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    1. So you already have a clue that these new neighbors are great folks. You’ll have to go introduce yourself and tell them you used to have a black and silver schnauzer friend. All the schnauzers I know have such different personalities! Glad you stopped by and got caught up.

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    1. I think that is called shuddering, Kissie. And Xena doesn’t shake at work, she just shakes in the car when we first head out somewhere. It’s just usually to work. 🙂

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  6. Angel Lexi, it is so nice to finally meet you, I’ve heard and read so many wonderful things about you. It’s good to know that you are watching out for Xena and Luci and of course your wonderful Mom. If you happen to see a little B/S Schnauzer chasing horses through the fields would you tell him his mom still cries for her Damien Dauge and hopes he remembers to look out for the little ones and help show them the way just as you are doing. That will be my Christmas wish..

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    1. Hi Toni. Bet you didn’t know your inspiration to pick out the little girl with the yellow collar for my Mom came from me! I’m not surprised you know about me. I was pretty famous there on earth, you know. No brag, just fact. I’ll watch for Damien and give him your message. He’s probably paired up with a unicorn of his own. Oh, and I am sure he knows how much you miss him. We all do. I will ask the Big Guy about the watching out stuff. Love, Lexi

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  7. Aw, Lexie sweet girl, so good to hear from you. Good to know you are on the job and watching over Xena (and Lucy). You are doing a great job! Looks like Spike is a great friend.
    ~ take care Margret

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  8. Sounds like you’re doing a great job, L. I wouldn’t expect anything less. If you get this courage thing figured out for your earthly little sister, throw some my way! Yesterday, I was afraid of the fire extinguisher that hangs in the hallway of our building.

    Love and licks,
    Cupcake

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    1. C, things hanging in the hallway might jump out and get you, right? Show it who’s boss and you won’t have to be afraid. Besides, your Mom would never, ever let anything hurt you. ~Angel Lexi

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  9. What a wonderful post ~ and you have given me so much hope for the future as Big Oscar passed over the rainbow bridge last week ~ knowing you are following your mom and guiding Xena to be the princess is meant to be is exactly what I needed to read this morning ….Lexi you truly are an angel
    All my love Mrs P XX

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      1. I wonder if it was Lexi who encouraged me to feed Xena too many blueberries which gave Xena diarrhea on the comforter as we were falling asleep, which I had to clean up and which still stunk “to high heaven. Which is why I was up blogging at 1:30 in the morning. Stranger things have happened.

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  10. Lexi! You stopped in! I miss you so much. You’re doing such good work up there. Xena is a little spitfire and I just knew you’d be proud of her. I should’ve know you were behind it all. I miss you so so so much. Merry Christmas, my love. *Ear licks* Your Guy

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